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\n\tKerry Washington says her feelings of \u201cnot quite belonging\u201d in her family that she\u2019s had since childhood were a result of a long hidden secret that she was conceived using a sperm donor. <\/p>\n
\n\tThe actress opened up about the revelation in new interviews with The New York Times<\/em> and People<\/em>, tied to the release of her upcoming memoir, Thicker Than Water<\/em>. Out on Sept. 26, the memoir was initially the suggestion of friend and Scandal<\/em> boss Shonda Rhimes years ago, with Washington admitting that at the time, she had this \u201cnagging feeling\u201d she \u201cdidn\u2019t quite know myself well enough\u201d to pull it off. <\/p>\n \n\tNow, Thicker Than Water<\/em> dives deep on her educational and performance journeys, but also more difficult topics, like her various mental health conditions \u2014 depression, an eating disorder and insomnia \u2014\u00a0as well as the shocking revelation that her father is not her biological parent. <\/p>\n \n\tThat was something she discovered after wrapping her seven seasons as the lead of ABC hit Scandal <\/em>and deciding to dig into her past with the help of the Henry Louis Gates Jr.-hosted PBS series Finding Your Roots<\/em>. Washington told the New York Times<\/em> that when she went to collect DNA spit samples for the show in 2018, her mother and father had noticeable hesitation. \u201cI said: \u2018I just don\u2019t think they\u2019re going to agree to it. My dad\u2019s really uncomfortable,’\u201d she recalled. <\/p>\n \n\tBut Gates went to speak to her parents \u2014\u00a0Valerie, a professor, and Earl, a real estate agent \u2014\u00a0privately, which is when they asked about whether the possibility that Washington not being their biological child would \u201ccome up in the testing,\u201d the actress said. In response, Gates suggested that they have any conversations about the nature of Washington\u2019s lineage with them while they were all still alive. <\/p>\n \n\t\u201cI\u2019ve always had this weird disconnect with my dad, but I thought that was my fault. I thought I wasn\u2019t a kind enough person. But the idea that I was not his never occurred to me. It was just, why can\u2019t I be better to him? Why can\u2019t we be closer? What\u2019s wrong with me? What\u2019s wrong with us?\u201d she said. <\/p>\n \n\tThe Emmy-winning actress shared that she had mixed feelings once learning the truth, including liberation and excitement. But there were also feelings of guilt \u201cbecause I could see how much pain my parents were in, my dad in particular\u201d and resentment. <\/p>\n \n\t\u201cI think that dissonance of like, \u2018Somebody is not telling me something about my body\u2019 made me feel like there was something in my body I had to fix,\u201d she told People<\/em>, noting that her feelings of not belonging led her eating disorder, anxiety and self-esteem issues. <\/p>\n \n\tWashington, who said her mother planned to tell her by leaving a note in a safe deposit box, likened the discovery, while speaking to the Times<\/em>, to wandering through a library looking for a book about herself before her parents, the librarians, told her \u201cthere\u2019s a room we haven\u2019t shown you.’\u201d <\/p>\n \n\t\u201cI was birthed into a lie. I was playing a supporting character in my parents\u2019 story,\u201d she added. \u201cI know that their intention was to protect me, to love me, to take care of me, to keep my world simple. I get many years of not telling me, but I\u2019ve been an adult for over two decades.\u201d<\/p>\n \n\tWashington has attempted to locate her biological father, but according to the Times<\/em>, despite her \u201cbest efforts, there remains no way to determine his identity.\u201d She also shared that, at one point, she \u201ctried to give the publisher [Little, Brown Spark] their money back\u201d as the book she pitched was no longer the book she could write. <\/p>\n \n\tThe actress told People<\/em> her decision to include the revelation in her memoir has been a difficult one for her parents, though they generally support her. She also says she \u201cwill be forever grateful to Skip Gates\u201d and what she learned through her experience with his show. \u201cI\u2019m still missing this piece of not knowing where half of my biology comes from,\u201d she told the New York Times<\/em>. \u201cAt least I don\u2019t have any of the wrong pieces in the puzzle anymore.\u201d<\/p>\n<\/p><\/div>\n #Kerry #Washington #Parents #Reveal #Conceived #Sperm #Donor #Hollywood #Reporter<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" Kerry Washington says her feelings of \u201cnot quite belonging\u201d in her family that she\u2019s had<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":1701,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[2],"tags":[2826,2828,1821,2822,2824,1822,2825,2827,2823],"class_list":["post-1700","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-movie-news","tag-conceived","tag-donor","tag-hollywood","tag-kerry","tag-parents","tag-reporter","tag-reveal","tag-sperm","tag-washington"],"featured_image_urls":{"full":["https:\/\/demo3.aiwalls.com\/thesemovies\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/09\/GettyImages-1473124931.jpg",1024,576,false],"thumbnail":["https:\/\/demo3.aiwalls.com\/thesemovies\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/09\/GettyImages-1473124931-150x150.jpg",150,150,true],"medium":["https:\/\/demo3.aiwalls.com\/thesemovies\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/09\/GettyImages-1473124931-300x169.jpg",300,169,true],"medium_large":["https:\/\/demo3.aiwalls.com\/thesemovies\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/09\/GettyImages-1473124931-768x432.jpg",640,360,true],"large":["https:\/\/demo3.aiwalls.com\/thesemovies\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/09\/GettyImages-1473124931.jpg",640,360,false],"1536x1536":["https:\/\/demo3.aiwalls.com\/thesemovies\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/09\/GettyImages-1473124931.jpg",1024,576,false],"2048x2048":["https:\/\/demo3.aiwalls.com\/thesemovies\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/09\/GettyImages-1473124931.jpg",1024,576,false],"chromenews-featured":["https:\/\/demo3.aiwalls.com\/thesemovies\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/09\/GettyImages-1473124931.jpg",1024,576,false],"chromenews-large":["https:\/\/demo3.aiwalls.com\/thesemovies\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/09\/GettyImages-1473124931-825x575.jpg",825,575,true],"chromenews-medium":["https:\/\/demo3.aiwalls.com\/thesemovies\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/09\/GettyImages-1473124931-590x410.jpg",590,410,true],"arpw-thumbnail":["https:\/\/demo3.aiwalls.com\/thesemovies\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/09\/GettyImages-1473124931-50x50.jpg",50,50,true]},"author_info":{"display_name":"admin","author_link":"https:\/\/demo3.aiwalls.com\/thesemovies\/?author=1"},"category_info":"Movie News<\/a>","tag_info":"Movie News","comment_count":"0","_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/demo3.aiwalls.com\/thesemovies\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1700","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/demo3.aiwalls.com\/thesemovies\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/demo3.aiwalls.com\/thesemovies\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/demo3.aiwalls.com\/thesemovies\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/demo3.aiwalls.com\/thesemovies\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=1700"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/demo3.aiwalls.com\/thesemovies\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1700\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/demo3.aiwalls.com\/thesemovies\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/1701"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/demo3.aiwalls.com\/thesemovies\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=1700"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/demo3.aiwalls.com\/thesemovies\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=1700"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/demo3.aiwalls.com\/thesemovies\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=1700"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}